Friday, August 17, 2018

17 August 2018


I want to write an honest sentence. In case you missed it, you can't believe the intelligence community because they're serial killers and you can't believe the president because he's a lying narcissist and you can't believe the media because they need ratings and you can't believe your spouse because he's been abused and you can't believe your kids because they're teens and you can't believe yourself because who are you to judge and you can't believe your students because they want good grades and you can't believe the airport van driver because he wants a tip and you can't believe in kindness because it's false and you can't believe in meanness because it's true and you can't believe in God because he's so last millennium and you can't believe in celebrity because what did they ever do except sing a few songs and you can't believe Aretha because she's dead and you can't believe Miles Davis because he was improvising and you can't believe poetry because there's cultural capital to be made and you can't believe your editor because he wants to publish your book and you can't believe anyone likes your work because they'd say so anyway and you can't believe you fit in because you don't (who IS that damn haole woman?) and you can't believe your animals because they want to be fed and you can't believe your car because it breaks down and you can't believe in tariffs because they kill the economy and you can't believe in the economy because it's rigged and you can't believe in rigged witch hunts because they're, well, rigged and you can't believe in tweets because they're too short and you can't believe in social media complaints about the school because it does have resources and you can't believe in resources because someone wants to be in charge of them and you can't believe in authority because it's abused and you can't believe in abusers because they leave holes in your soul and you can't believe in your soul because the hole grows every year like the plastic patch and you can't believe the television anchor just burst into tears because her children go to Catholic school and the man she's interviewing says he was abused and you can't believe the priest had him drive the car when he was ten so he could fondle his genitals and you can't believe any of it. I climbed the stairs with the dog yesterday and saw an old man in a cap dragging one bad leg while in his right hand he clutched red roses in clear plastic.

--16 August 2018

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