I wrote this to send for her memorial service in Syracuse on Saturday. So wish I could be there.
MARTHE
REED
At
the top of Mauna Kea on the Big Island on March 31st,
Marthe Reed flung her arms in the air and yelled, “I should have
been an astrophysicist after all! Then I could come here all the
time!”
On
this same trip, she said that humanity was probably not worth saving,
but that she loved her friends.
Even
as she was engaging actively and deeply with the Big Island, she
would sometimes stray onto her prodigious twitter feed. When she got
going, Mike would say, “don’t feed the rage machine!” “FUCK!”
she would sometimes catcall. That meant news of Trump or Katko, her
dastardly congressperson.
My
husband Bryant remembers that, while spending several days with us on
O`ahu, she was 100 per cent engaged with our household’s people and
animals. When at one point I muttered, “we’re really odd!” she
responded by saying, “we all are.”
Marthe
was a strange and delightful mix of public judgments and private
acceptances. She had very firm loyalties, which were to persons, and
felt equally firm disdain for institutions. The university, the
government, the larger poetry world, all these merited four letters
each. Her friends, especially those who had been betrayed, bruised,
attacked in any way, those who were not “privileged” (as the word
goes), these were persons to be cherished, defended, loved utterly.
Although
Marthe and I were, along with Laura Mullen, members of the class of
1958 who traveled together on this trip, and while Marthe was the
youngest of us, by over two months, she often seemed maternal to me,
of me. Her powers of consolation, of having your back, of the kind
remark that freed you from a particular burden, all of these were
maternal. When she talked about her children, Marcy and Zeke, she was
especially fierce and loving.
Marthe
hated poetry climbers, though she didn’t call them that. “We’re
all going to die,” she declared one day on this trip, “and no one
will remember us or our work, and that’s ok.” Marthe
herself did not “climb,” but her work was very high altitude: she
was a brilliant poet and a visionary publisher.
You
are here to remember Marthe. We will remember her in New Orleans next
week. We will remember her at occasions far and wide in coming years.
Marthe is less a voluntary memory than an involuntary one, as Proust
defined it. We don’t have to work to summon her up. She’s there.
When I told her several years ago that I was teaching—trying to
teach—Proust in an honors class, she sent me her above/ground press
chapbook, After Swann.
Section
28 goes as follows:
abandon
the idea
these
perfect
marvels
source
of keen pleasure
breaking
everywhere
multiform,
coherent
deep
blue tumult of
memory
the
fragrance of
the
moist air
such
moments
escape
submersion
vanished
sensations
suddenly
returned
slow
and rhythmical
a
state
melancholy,
incessant, sweet
vanished
without
speaking
a
woman
a
moment
a
new form of
perception
not
even her name
This
was my
last email from Marthe: "Oh
gods, traveling again [little
bear emoji]?...totally
jet-lagged and blurry now."
She
has traveled farther than she had imagined, and
has
come closer to us. We are now
she.
Let us be as fierce and beautiful as she was. At least let us try.
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