Lilith meets a vet

 

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I asked if I could take a photo of the tattoo on his upper arm. "If you're into ink!" he replied. He'd been one of three or four men with the same last name on a battleship in the Persian Gulf in 1987-89; he pointed to several tattoos, naming each guy they stood for, starting with Jerry. All I saw was naked women, but what do I know? He held a crumpled Coke can (was that where the pakololo smell came from?) and listened to music the played from his open car. 

 

He looked grizzled, but fit; his energy surged up and down some. From Arkansas, he carried the twang on his tongue, said he loved to go back to hunt on private property. "No wardens ever go up on that ridge, which was used in the Civil War." His Aunt Gracy owns it. He met his wife when he got back from the Gulf and their 35th is coming up. The family includes Snoopy, so I gathered there's a dog. His 20-something son's never given him much trouble, but the way kids act these days. 12 year olds now do NOT act like they did when he was 12. They have no respect. 

 

When I told him my son was just sworn in as a police officer in Virginia, he said, "Good for him! I wouldn't do it." I asked how he got to Hawai`i, and he said his sister lives in Kona. Bought her house for 750K, but now it would sell for over a million. I told him that kind of money would get you a fixer upper on Oahu, and he honed in on the phrase "fixer upper." We appreciated the sun. He hoped things would start to dry out a bit. Lilith was missing, but I had a story.

Metronome: Elegy 9

Metronome

A friend says her grief

Is like a puppy pooping

In the corner   yes!

It stinks all right

Hyperactive / aware

A small blonde girl

At the Kurtistown Cafe

Stood in high pink boots

Her shirt read NO!

I asked if she wore it

So she didn’t have

To say it, but NO!

Was her and her father’s

Answer / they left

Hand in hand with her

“Sushi toys” / his plate

Lunch / A woman in mask

Came over to ask

If I also live alone

She lives out of a cooler

I said no / but I left

My husband at the airport

And was treating myself

To kalua cabbage

Grief becomes a form

Of awareness / a looking

With / an eating with

The dead / you’d hold up

Your hands before you ate

Blessing the food

Before it entered you

To fuel a prayer for

My dog and cats /

They organize them

Selves in geometries

Triangle square near

Perfect circle before

An inevitable shift

Stench from litter box

Or yell from food dish

Bark at front door

Metronome keeping

Time before it stops

Again /

Lilith blesses America (a story before the last one)

A week after the assassination attempt on Trump's life, Lilith and I ran into Uncle John in the cemetery. He asked how we were feeling. I reported that I felt sick to my stomach. Why? Because it looks like we're going to get Trump again.

He raised his hands up, gazed toward the sky, started to sing "God Bless America."  As Lilith and I trudged home, I thought I can't do this project any more, can't keep my equanimity, can only write evasions of the central subject. I'd intended to write a second volume to Lilith Walks, one that ended with the coming election. But now I just couldn't do it any more. 

We got home, dressed in our gloom, and I turned on my computer. "Biden steps down, endorses Harris," it told me. 

Political joy, you've been a long time gone.

Two faces in Waikiki (sans Lilith)

Walking down Kalakaua in Waikiki, watching tourists drift by and taking pictures of some of them, I saw a rumpled, gray haired, man approaching; he was staggering toward a curb. As he got there, he fell straight forward, off the curb onto the sidewalk, face first. Two security men appeared out of nowhere. A Japanese couple stopped, startled to see the man get up, his black-framed glasses thrown a couple feet ahead of him. Drops of blood spattered on the cement. His nose was bleeding, his right hand was covered with it. One security guard talked into his lapel.

 

A block or two farther toward the Diamond Head end of Waikiki, a young man called out, "Obama!" I told him he was the first person in Waikiki to notice my shirt, which is all I have before I find a Kamala Harris one. "Great president," he said. "My name is Barak, and I'm from the Holy Land." I asked if I could take his photo. After unsuccessfully suggesting that we take a photo together, he stepped back from shadows into the light, which didn't make for a good result. "Come into my store," he said, "I like you, and your shirt." After telling him that he could not sell me anything, I entered, sat in a black chair as he talked to me about the bags under my eyes. Did I want them gone? Did I want to look younger? I told him I had been younger, but feel ok with how I look at my age. He put a blob of skin color gunk on a big q-tip and started applying the goop under my right eye. I might need it on my eyelids, too, as gravity was operating there, too. He aimed a small fan at my face and started drying my under-eye. My skin would tighten, he said. No more bags.

He showed myself to me in a mirror, and to tell the truth, I didn't see much difference. Realizing that I could still offer him nothing, I said I would tell my friends about his shop. He thanked me; he's not paid on commission, but he could use customers. 

 

I never looked to see the name of the shop. But it's on Kalakaua, in case you want your bags removed. You might have to raise your windows, though (as he called my glasses).

 

Lilith and the hunters of Kahalu`u

 

The snail hunter of Kahalu`u doesn't hunt snails any more, but she still has opinions. "If this weren't happening, you couldn't make this shit up," I said, spotting her opening the back door to her car. "I knew if we ran into each other, we'd make faces," she said. "Was that guy paid off?" she asked about the shooter. (I didn't say it's hard to get paid when you're dead, but I took her point.) "He missed. He missed." What next? She looked at me hard and said, "Harris is Asian and Black; she can't win." I suggested an all-woman ticket, Harris and Whitmer, and she gave me intense side eye. Her tone, as she retreated to her gate, was sandpaper grim.

 

The deer hunter of Kahalu`u said as soon as he heard the assassination attempt, he knew it wasn't serious. He's a Democrat, but he knows all the rifles, all the rounds, and that wasn't going to do it. Michelle Obama would be his pick (I also heard this from another dog walking friend).

We all agreed we'd just have to wait and see. History is a bitch that way, when you're in it.

Time Stamps: Elegy 8

But whom do people kill? They kill the noble, the brave, the heroes. They take aim at these and do not know that with these they mean themselves. They should sacrifice the hero in themselves, and because they do not know this, they kill their courageous [sister].

--Carl Jung, The Red Book

Or, they kill the mirror

That reflects themselves

As if surface were allegory

For depth / and depth

Could speak in words

And words could kill

What they hate they

Cannot see in themselves

But saw in you / trans-

posed to light / radiant

In your little house

By the creek / frog-

infused / where you

Put your tent out

Back some nights

Cacophony the mirror

Of silence / frog song

Mantras chanted to

Mark a prelude

“Don’t expect thoughts

To stop,” they say

They never do

But you can drop

Them like towels

In a basket / snow

On city street / you

Offered us the silence

Of your frequent

Absences—off to do

This! Do that!--

Neighbor looked up

To see her missing

Dog at the edge

Of her lanai / only

Her time had passed

Not his / for he was

There / Is your death absence

Or return? Your photo

On my fridge place-holds

The question / time stamp

Reads 2001 / March / afternoon

Now 2024 / July / morning

Dog and I turned back

When it began to rain

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I and Eucalyptus is series of meditative poems, or poetic meditations, on the relationship between the writer and a tree, by way of Martin Buber’s I and Thou, including 21 full color photographs of the tree. Schultz’s obsession with a solitary eucalyptus in a neighborhood park opens up space for discussions of self and other (as well as dog), creation and decreation, accident and abstraction in art, politics and spirituality, and much else. Tree and writer exchange vows, but there’s no insurance to cover such a union, so writer and dog return home, “develop” photos, and muse about these encounters between human and tree beings. The eucalyptus, so often considered worthless and invasive, becomes a worthwhile guide to thought. Answers, of course, are all more questions, for the book is more quest than end-point. Each section is accompanied by a photograph of the tree’s drips and drabs; greens, reds and yellows; its peeling bark and black sap.