Saturday, May 11, 2024

11 May 2024

 

Clothes pins rest like quarter notes, triplets, on a one line staff.

Rain burble, bird squabble (at least when the cat’s outdoors).

Palm fronds hang like sad wigs, tired of water’s weight.

Hard to know if the pins play in major or minor key.

Bird squawks an awkward percussion, behind finch chatter.

Do anything to avoid the madness that is not mad enough

to leave realism behind, its authority assumed, asserted

like an argument without text, scream without fear.

“Dog whistles” can’t be heard by non-dogs, but they enter

the bloodstream as the kind of anxiety we feel before

we assign it value, until that value slips into

waterfalls of impulse without feeling, promising nothing

but metaphysical excuses; it matters because it means .

But back to the lanai, where notes and sounds divorce,

losses marked less by anguish than by paperwork.

Ambient traffic sounds on a wet morning underlay

the structures of chance; our son called us just as

we spoke his name, an event hardly rising to miracle

but not to be dismissed as non-event. These disabled

miracles, or partial wonders, remind us how lucky

we are to breathe. A young man in Canada screams

every night, so no one sleeps well, and we remember

how much we wanted to scream our hurts out as if

they were plastics in the belly of an albatross, freed

by a cough’s violence to make an approximate

garage sale of the lawn; we laid out our treasures:

cups, plastic bags, little forks with and without

tines, creased fast food bags already disgorged

of their processed meals. If we find a clothes

pin, will it make a pure sound inside the portable

alleys we walk down in our suburbs, or the real ones

in Chinatown, where trash is an honorific, beside

stalls of fruits, the Buddhas that laugh behind

plate glass, stuffed animals and lei shops. Look

at nothing as if you know it and nothing will stare

back at you with an absent gaze. To be Gaza’ed

is to avoid looking straight at; in this world, we’re

all autistic, overwhelmed by the sight of another

person’s eyes, small child mourning his mother’s

cooking, image precise enough to skewer your eye.

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